Dear Internets,
In my dream last night, I was at the airport. I was ready to fly to Mexico for my step-sister's wedding. I was there early, bright-eyed and bushy tailed, for my 6 AM flight. The representative at the desk told me that I could no longer fly on the flight I had bought my ticket for. "Is the plane still making the flight?" I demanded.
"Yes, but-"
"I don't understand why I can't be on the flight. I bought my ticket months ago."
"And we will refund your money so you will be able to take a different flight at another time."
"My sister's wedding is tomorrow. I need to be on that flight."
"No one can get on that flight."
"Then why is it even flying?"
"Because George Bush bought all the seats."
"How can someone - former president or not - buy all the seats on a plane when many of them had already been sold?"
I refused to accept the fact that I couldn't be on this flight. The airline had no other flights to Cancun that day. I couldn't buy a flight on another airline because I didn't have any money. When my brother showed up at the airport, I woke up.
I don't think it's a good sign when I have dreams about not making it to my step-sister's wedding when it's still 4 months away. Maybe I'm just afraid I won't be able to pay for it.
Love,
Becky
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Phew
Dear Internets,
I am so lucky sometimes. I don't know how I still have a job, but I do, for sure. Without a doubt. My boss had to lay off 2 people yesterday. Another boss had to lay off 3. Cuts were made throughout the whole office. They were my friends, and now they're gone.
This morning, early (for her, not for me), my boss called me into her office. We had already gotten the "staffing announcement" memo from the president of the company, so I was pretty sure I still had a job, but I was worried about a reprimand about how much time I spend on the internet during the day. I still don't think she knows about that. No. What she wanted to talk about after the pleasantries ("yesterday was a hard day") was that she wants to give me more responsibility. Cross-train me, use me in the upcoming busy season doing some of the extra work load now that manpower has been lessened. "Yes, of course, whatever you need," I told her, relieved. She even mentioned that if I liked what I was learning, I could move on to a new position "if someone else left." I didn't ask if that "someone else" would be leaving voluntarily.
Remind me again why I'd want a position that continually gets axed when the layoffs come around? Theoretically, it'll make more money, but with the salary freeze, I'm not sure if that could happen. I think I'll stay right where I am for the time being. I like being the only one who knows how to do my job.
I'm safe, for now. I hope for a long time.
Yours,
Becky
I am so lucky sometimes. I don't know how I still have a job, but I do, for sure. Without a doubt. My boss had to lay off 2 people yesterday. Another boss had to lay off 3. Cuts were made throughout the whole office. They were my friends, and now they're gone.
This morning, early (for her, not for me), my boss called me into her office. We had already gotten the "staffing announcement" memo from the president of the company, so I was pretty sure I still had a job, but I was worried about a reprimand about how much time I spend on the internet during the day. I still don't think she knows about that. No. What she wanted to talk about after the pleasantries ("yesterday was a hard day") was that she wants to give me more responsibility. Cross-train me, use me in the upcoming busy season doing some of the extra work load now that manpower has been lessened. "Yes, of course, whatever you need," I told her, relieved. She even mentioned that if I liked what I was learning, I could move on to a new position "if someone else left." I didn't ask if that "someone else" would be leaving voluntarily.
Remind me again why I'd want a position that continually gets axed when the layoffs come around? Theoretically, it'll make more money, but with the salary freeze, I'm not sure if that could happen. I think I'll stay right where I am for the time being. I like being the only one who knows how to do my job.
I'm safe, for now. I hope for a long time.
Yours,
Becky
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Layoffs
Dear Internets,
It's hard to work today, now that I found out that so many of my coworkers are no longer allowed to work here. Big round of layoffs at the Office. Again. Just like last time, I'm assured by all around me that my job is safe, they couldn't get rid of me. But that doesn't mean I don't worry. My heart is beating a little harder than usual today, and there's palpable tension in the air. 5 people from my floor alone lost their jobs today, and I didn't even know about it until after the fact. There was more whispering than usual today, but it didn't occur to me to delve deeper until this afternoon, after one of my coworkers down the cubicle row from me suddenly seemed to disappear from the office. Then someone else made a comment about my boss's office, and how it's not a happy place today. Right. Because they are layoffs today. Just like last time, no one knew they were actually coming.
I can't concentrate, and I've got two projects on my plate that I'm having trouble figuring out. Would they be easier to grasp if I were able to hold myself together a little better? How could I have been so oblivious this morning?
Now I just have to wait for the "spontaneous" all-staff meeting to talk about our "reduction in force." I'm sure that one will be just peachy.
Your faithful servant,
Becky
It's hard to work today, now that I found out that so many of my coworkers are no longer allowed to work here. Big round of layoffs at the Office. Again. Just like last time, I'm assured by all around me that my job is safe, they couldn't get rid of me. But that doesn't mean I don't worry. My heart is beating a little harder than usual today, and there's palpable tension in the air. 5 people from my floor alone lost their jobs today, and I didn't even know about it until after the fact. There was more whispering than usual today, but it didn't occur to me to delve deeper until this afternoon, after one of my coworkers down the cubicle row from me suddenly seemed to disappear from the office. Then someone else made a comment about my boss's office, and how it's not a happy place today. Right. Because they are layoffs today. Just like last time, no one knew they were actually coming.
I can't concentrate, and I've got two projects on my plate that I'm having trouble figuring out. Would they be easier to grasp if I were able to hold myself together a little better? How could I have been so oblivious this morning?
Now I just have to wait for the "spontaneous" all-staff meeting to talk about our "reduction in force." I'm sure that one will be just peachy.
Your faithful servant,
Becky
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