Layoffs

Dear Internets,

It's hard to work today, now that I found out that so many of my coworkers are no longer allowed to work here. Big round of layoffs at the Office. Again. Just like last time, I'm assured by all around me that my job is safe, they couldn't get rid of me. But that doesn't mean I don't worry. My heart is beating a little harder than usual today, and there's palpable tension in the air. 5 people from my floor alone lost their jobs today, and I didn't even know about it until after the fact. There was more whispering than usual today, but it didn't occur to me to delve deeper until this afternoon, after one of my coworkers down the cubicle row from me suddenly seemed to disappear from the office. Then someone else made a comment about my boss's office, and how it's not a happy place today. Right. Because they are layoffs today. Just like last time, no one knew they were actually coming.

I can't concentrate, and I've got two projects on my plate that I'm having trouble figuring out. Would they be easier to grasp if I were able to hold myself together a little better? How could I have been so oblivious this morning?

Now I just have to wait for the "spontaneous" all-staff meeting to talk about our "reduction in force." I'm sure that one will be just peachy.

Your faithful servant,
Becky